Happy New Year! Strange how this New Year’s is so different from the last for us. I hadn’t thought about it until today, that last year we got our negative beta news on New Years Day, the news that our first IVF had not worked. We were very disappointed, but ready to push on and try some FETs with the frozen embryos. It was poor timing, though, cycling through the holidays. Don’t recommend that to anyone, though at the time our only thought (as usual) was to get this show on the road.
There are so many days like that, with infertility, days where you remember what you were doing this time last year, times when you realize how many months pregnant you would be, or how old of a child you would have, if a certain cycle or treatment had worked. Or you run into people, online or in real life, who
were trying at the same time you were, or even after, and had luck, and you see what a different place they are now, from where you are. You can’t help but feel envy, and sadness, frustration. I know there are people out there that look at me that way. You can’t help it, when you are in that place. It is a lonely place to be.
Onward.
So we are back from Christmas in Maryland, which was lovely, and busy, and fun. The flights were pretty good, for cross country flights, and the airline people were actually quite good in hooking us up with seating that accommodated my incessant visits to tiny airplane bathrooms. Christmas itself was wonderful, with lots of family time, and Santa came through with a great new digital camera, which requires me to step up my skills and knowledge a bit as it is way more complicated than the last. But, better pictures will result, and hopefully give this blog some inspiration and needed visuals in the very near future.
In baby news, the halfway point has come and gone, we are now at 22 weeks, and it still amazes me. She is a kicker, it seems, and awake a lot more these days, or at least more active when she is. Or maybe just bigger. I definitely am, in any case, and in more places than one. Egads.
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Yeah! You are back. I’ve been wondering how things were going. A kicker is good, very good.
I didn’t realize we both had negative betas on New Year’s last year. I should know this! SUCKS…. Of course, I had mine on New Year’s Eve. Didn’t make it to beta.
So glad this year I was not on the cycle wagon either I don’t recommend that to worst enemy. Made for a much better New Year and holiday season without cycling.
Digital cameras are very good. What’s up with the math question?